anyone know the feeling as if you are tearing apart?you know what wei qu is?the past bugs me.

boyf made me felt that.first was girls.then two stupid incident then another involves his ex.and the stupid day at power house when i cried like a mad woman.the feeling is like im fucking unhappy with this but i cant do anything i can only stand aside watching my heart break bit by bit.end of everything still must smile act nth happen.cos i cant step over the boundaries.

.the time i saw the reply she sent.my heart literally broke.you fucking tear my heart apart.your promises you broke.even after what you promised me you still can send that fucking sms to her and delete it away thinking i wont know.

baby it hurts.after all i have gone thru for u.it really hurts like fuck.after this you can still ask your guy friend intro girl to you.when i ask you you say its only a casual remark thats the way you talk to your buddies.am i that naive?msging girls ask them how old are they.i asked you to stop before.but you wont.you wont STOP.what can i still do.i can only act like i dont bother and set you free.i hate you for being so desperate but what i can do.smile act as if nth happen.pls stop doing all these i dunno how long i can take this.im tearing apart.

baby i hate to love you sometimes i wish i can be set free but i know i cant.i tried to know other guys,but i cant get myself to leave you.how?
i hate myself.i really hate myself i fucking hate myself.
I DUNNO WHAT TO DO.MY WORLD IF FILLED WITH MORE AND MORE HATRED..BUT IT SEEMS I HAVE NO WHERE TO GO.IM SO FAKE!!!IM SO UNHAPPY SO ANGRY SO RESENTFUL I DONT WANT IT,I WISH I COULD VENT OUT ALL THIS FUSTRATION AND SOMEONE TO CARE FOR ME.BUT NO,I CANT ONLY KEEP QUIET AND SMILE EVERYDAY SAYING I LOVE YOU.
its karma for me to meet you.karma